Up up and away or Free falling?

I really should be at school today.  I have a paper due on March 1st (that I do have on my computer here to edit.... so hopefully I can do most of the changes today.... although I know I have to change some pics in the document and don't have that with me :( ) and I have an abstract due that I have yet to run the files through SPSS.... hmmmm... I can still do this - the slight problem is that the female advisor is only at school until Wednesday - and of course I have to work around their schedules and not mine... which sucks because it is suppose to be MY reading week (profs still are expected to work this week).. so it is a bit of an annoyance --- but my advisor did buy my SPSS for my mac --- which is cool - but it didn't arrive until this week which means I don't have it on my computer at the moment which means I have to go to school.. Additionally I agreed to do a favour for a friend of mine in Windsor - it was suppose to be done Thurs/Fri of last week BUT the person she was waiting for was of course not on the ball and didn't get things together - so now I have to do it for her hopefully tomorrow - which also requires that I'm in Windsor.

BUT

Toronto has been nice.  I've been able to hang out with Maggie, Sharon, Rafa, Mark, and of course Jen.  We went out the first night which was entertaining itself.... nothing like have a Bono wannabe look-a-like come up to your table and discuss moose.  I know thats vague - but the story can always be told later.  There has also been some swimming... and card playing.... and wine drinking.... and movie watching.. etc....

I woke up this morning at 6:40am though.  I was having a dream where I was waiting to get on an elevator --- but instead of pushing an "up or down" arrow button --- you pushed a button for the desired floor destination.  I wanted to go to the 4th floor... and while waiting for the correct elevator to arrive a bunch of people ended up waiting with me - and riots ensued and well it was crazy --- in the end I, and a few others, got pushed into the elevator shaft.  (Why there were no closed doors to the elevator shaft.. not too sure).  The guy was so mean.  But someone threw a rope around my waist which stopped me form falling past a certain point and all the other people ended up somehow hanging on to someone who directly or indirectly was hanging on to me.... anyway... eventually I ended up falling down the elevator shaft and while falling totally woke up.  Not sure how you fall down an elevator shaft though when you're on the first floor wanting to go to the 4th but it was like a bottomless elevator shaft!... and why no one thought to take the stairs - i'll never know.

its progress...

Phase one complete.
I did the online application process for my Ph.D. application. I suppose that is actually phase 3. Phase one would be talking to and meeting with different profs. Phase two would be deciding to apply and with whom to work with. Thus Phase 3 (I like the way the number 3 looks instead of the words, hence the symbol over the word.. its not that I have a rule that 3+ should be in the form of symbols)... is the online application.
Phase four is in the works. There is a paper submission. This consists of transcripts, money, reference letters, and the answers to some questions that for some reason they didn't include in the online part. Some of the questions relate to a possible TAship. For example I had to choose and rank some sports that I have either advance or intermediate experience/training with/in. I went with dance, football, basketball and volleyball.
My one advisor who is acting as a referee for me (not in the above stated sports, but rather for my above mentioned reference letters) wrote that she was happy to provide me with one but sad that I have to go.
And you know what I am sad to leave. Although I haven't had the best run of things in Windsor - and there have been a lot of shitty things that have happened since I moved here - I have grown a lot as a person. There are definitely reasons why I would like to stay - but I think that even without my thesis being done at this point I'm frustrated with still being here. I don't care for where I'm living at the moment... and need out. There is so much drama among a bunch of friends that its more than I care to deal with or even know about. I just need a chance to get away and breathe I think. I'm definitely in a glass box that has been filling with water and I'm almost out of air --- thankfully its a glass box though - it means people can see in....(as I can also see out)... so I'll be just fine and not run out of space nor air.

35 seconds

Second post tonight....

Colts were defeated.

Packers were defeated.

The unlikely superbowl matchup is NE & Giants

NE has had an 18-0 season - most likely to win

but with 35 seconds to go the giants just scored a TD to take the lead!!!

The ring just might stay in the Manning family!  NE might be defeated when it counts the most..

a lot can happen in 35 "football seconds though..

well that didn't go as planned.

This was suppose to be an awesome weekend - I've been looking forward to this weekend for so many weeks now - its not even funny.

I was suppose to meet my roommate Friday night for dinner - that didn't happen.

I was suppose to go Toronto (with maybe a stop off in Guelph) to have some very needed time with some friends.

I was suppose to have a bunch of work done after a stressful week so that the week approaching wouldn't be so hard to bare.

What did happen?

- migraine

- upset stomach

- swollen left eye

- cell phone not working properly

- internet connection rare if at all

- weekend spent by myself... = lots of guilt and disappoint...