The calm before the storm?

There have been wonderful things that have taken place since I last wrote.... for example...

Sharon finished Law School - bard and all!

Jos & Barry got ENGAGED!!!

Carissa & Jason got married.

I completed my training to be an occurrence investigator - which is extremely cool.

I started writing a book... I know right - me? a) like I have time and b) me... write?

I went to my first IMAX movie (it was Transformers II with Zahra!)

I was elected the CFO/VP Finance for Kin Council

Celebrated Canada Day at Sharon's with some friends present....

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But I suppose I do not often enough think to blog when happy things happen... but rather use this as a way to get thoughts out of my head and feel like I'm telling my friends (and I suppose a stranger or two) these thoughts so they know what is going on in my crazy head.

The next month is going to be..... stressful.

I have my comps in a month. So over the next month I have to study my butt off.

The sad thing is right before I write Sharon, with Talon and Wyatt (and eventually Rafa) will be leaving London to travel a distance.. and I don't mean they are moving to Toronto, I could handle that... I mean much further away - and the thought of that is full of mixed emotions. I'm excited that they are embarking on this opportunity - I'm just really sad it has to be so far away. They may as well be in Cuba! hahaha - except in Cuba if I got the opportunity to visit it would be much much warmer! haha.

Anyway - I'm stressed about these comps.

I keep being told that it is an exciting time... and granted fine - it is - a chance to learn material I otherwise would not get the opportunity to learn, its a month where I get to actually study - I will never be given that much time again.. etc.... I get all that - doesn't make the task any less daunting.

To make matters worse - I think it is setting in the fact that my dad.. is gone, and not coming back.

My mom has a "friend". She claims him only to be a friend - and I believe her - but you never know where things might go from here.

He, in less than a two week period, has met, well my mom, my sister, my aunt, my uncle, my grandmother!!! He apparently is a nice guy. I think that he will be a good friend for my mom to have - but because of other characteristics I suppose you could call them, I am hesitant to believe that it will turn out to be any more than that.

I had to tell my mom though last night that I am not willing to meet him until after my comps. Not to sound selfish - but I just cannot handle that right now.

I asked about my sister's response to meeting him and she said "mom, I think he is a really nice guy, but now I have to accept that dad is really gone and not coming back".... which killed me and made some realizations come to light for me.

I don't want to have to fight it all off - but I cannot lose it right now and deal with it all - I need to study - I'm already behind on my study schedule (which started yesterday).. and I cannot afford to fall any further behind (as I type a blog, not part of study schedule! hahaha).

I think this next month is going to be one of the hardest ones I've had to endure.

But I will survive and "be a better person for it".